San Diego, May 2018

UCSD, Chicano Park.

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“passion never dies, it lives your work. walking through Chicano Park, i feel the need for the culture’s survival. i know that we will live forever.”

the night before leaving to San Diego, i had a dream about the genocide of the black community by white supremacy. after leading my meditation class at UCSD, taking us through a visual journey of forgiveness (of self and others), after visiting and speaking with several campus cultural centers including the LGBTQIA center, the Cross Cultural Center, the Raza Resource Center and the Black Resource Center, after learning of the history of racism and the immediate clap back that followed, AND after walking through and witnessing the beauty and strength of Chicano Park, I KNOW THAT WE WILL LIVE FOREVER.

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New Orleans, May 2018

my first trip to New Orleans, may 2018. first trip in my may 2018 travels.

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i went to new orleans to lead my meditation workshop, and to break out of my land-lock funk that i feel like i’ve been living in for years. i had expressed feeling landlocked in january to my friend Jess, and that i didn’t know what my first move would be to get out of it! …. girl. a month later i had my ticket to NOLA.

“i didn’t get here without sacrifices.

sacrifice: to make something sacred. had to make this life sacred.

currently in the state of ‘i am’.

proud to say that i’m PROUD. and still ain’t shit. DUALITY… and freedom.

my momma told me ‘everyday you choose to love’ so my daily mantra is

TODAY I CHOOSE TO LOVE.”

BIG Heart Ranch Malibu

community meditation at BIG Heart Ranch. sharing energy with donkeys, horses, deer, goats, a llama, and my fellow humans.

the key word of the evening was VULNERABILITY.

being open to shedding the layers of our personas, our ego, and knowing that even without it, we’re okay! we’re safe, we’re protected, we’re loved, without ego we become more aware. without ego, i feel more human and more alive.

i expressed after the group meditation that just being out in nature instead of the city, having flies and animals all around me, i at first felt uncomfortable. i felt open and vulnerable. but i faced these feelings with compassion and embraced the vulnerability. i was able to break a lil bit of my wall down, opening myself up to being human. to being more than i thought i was.

21 Days of Gratitude: Days 18 & 19 (Strength)

i’m enjoying posting these together

day 18

  • god thank you for art
  • god thank you for the arts saving my life
  • god thank you for authenticity
  • god thank you for balance
  • god thank you for release
  • god thank you for our microcosmic patterned life
  • god thank you for divine unconditional love
  • god thank you for removing stress from my life
  • god thank you for removing idealistic perfection from life

day 19

  • god thank you for nourishment
  • god thank you for color
  • god thank you for inspiration
  • god thank you for my ability to travel where i want to while doing what i love
  • god thank you for healthy, balanced partnerships
  • god thank you for time and healing
  • god thank you for divine love

strength (reversed)

infinite power through push/pull balance. relax muscles and observe yourself living. question what makes you masculine. question what makes you effeminate. question what makes you both/neither. this is life as pure energy. this is strength in everything-ness.

21 Days of Gratitude: Days 12-17 (Queen of Swords)

*it’s been a crazy week, y’all… the gratitude was written but not posted. still grateful

day 12

  • god thank you for today’s stretch meditation
  • god thank you for my breath
  • god thank you for always giving me what i need
  • god thank you for my being able to receive
  • god thank you for the countless opportunities to share love as a lifestyle
  • god thank you for my global adventures
  • god thank you for my health & wealth
  • god thank you for my abundance
  • god thank you for sexual expression
  • (the empress)

day 13

  • god thank you for my ability to channel your light
  • god thank you for my gaining new important information
  • god thank you for the ability to surrender to your will
  • god thank you for all the pieces of me i understand
  • god thank you for all the pieces of me i have yet to uncover
  • god thank you for my spirit guides who help me cut chords
  • god thank you for beauty
  • god thank you for my beauty

day 14

  • god thank you for showing me what needs attention in myself

day 15

  • god thank you for my health
  • god thank you for my security
  • god thank you for my loved ones that value me
  • god thank you for the equal exchange of give and receive
  • god thank you for the balance
  • god thank you for righteous education
  • god thank you for the tools i receive to help me thrive
  • god thank you for helping me to release my trauma
  • god thank you for my guides

day 16

  • god thank you for waterfalls
  • god thank you for my prosperity
  • god thank you for your messages
  • god thank you for light
  • god thank you for rest
  • god thank you for my honesty with myself
  • god thank you for listening
  • god thank you for your everpresence
  • god thank you for answering my prayers always

day 17

  • god thank you for finished projects
  • god thank you for faith
  • god thank you for clean water and nutrition
  • god thank you for my ability to dance and play music
  • god thank you for pure energy
  • god thank you for my 21+ days of gratitude
  • god thank you for this beautiful blossoming that i am going through
  • god thank you for your communication
  • god thank you for your unconditional LOVE

queen of swords

master of the cocoon, open to self-transformation. willing to release the old because she knows that the new brings beauty, wisdom, higher levels of being, peace. she is patient and in her surrender she is free. she welcomes the future and lives in the present. she has known solitude, darkness, waiting. now released from it, she is knowing yet humble, always looking and listening for the signs of the love-making of space and time. student of the butterfly.